Looking back at a period of time teeming with erratic years of feeling emotionally beaten down, it would be awfully cute to say I was self medicating with "copious amounts of alcohol." Truth be told, I was *wrecked*, inside and out, but even then, I was compulsively making art. I had no words then, just feelings held in, and without control, just pouring out, and this piece was made one tormented night, while balancing the free feeling of a quickly whisking arm spurting out soft, pink hues, as if my also pink, soft insides could heal with that aggressive magic wand wave. I was being watched by a gross, lusty human while I painted this, and I held it together with strong movements and soft colors. When I finished, I stepped back, and took a gasp. I might have been holding my breath, or maybe I was gasping the whole time. Whatever it was, I felt good, and without wavering, told the person to leave. I sat and marveled at all the soft nuance and texture and complexity that came out of something so primal.
This painting has stayed in my life for so very long. When I was in Japan, it was one of my few saved possessions, carefully laid out in storage. And when I came back, it was one of the first things hung on my wall. Even though it brought back painful memories, it also reminded me of the power of vulnerable expression and has always given me strength. Most meaningful art does not house just one feeling.
So, like I said, Ive been looking back.
And, now I’m looking forward.
I’ve gotten my sweet reminders from my 5’ x 3’ friend a lot, lately, that I can take those movements and spiral into something new.
She's told me I’m finally ready to let her also spin off into her new home.
I am very proud and so very resolved to announce that this baby is now officially for sale.
Local pickup, but shipping may be available, depending on cost, due to size- DM me your location, and I can find out shipping cost, if outside of Tallahassee and interested.
DM me with any questions.
5’ x 3’ gallery wrapped canvas
Upon request, a contrasting color can be applied to outer edge of canvas.
Local pickup or delivery only in Tallahassee, Florida.